Sunday, the rain
Has passed
But not the grey
the insufferable dampness coming down on the city like a blanket
or long-term relationships
Asking over and over for attention to go grocery shopping or to watch a ten seconds Youtube clip
Wavering between one’s need for warmth and the other’s intolerance for unmoving air
even with the windows opened
Reading of gloating praises of Nobel laureate and poetry as art
Art, what fucking art?
When all one wants to do is a to pass a Sunday without the vexation of boredom, the numbness of distractions and—
God damn it—just a breath of fresh air
Sunday, February 09, 2014
Wednesday, October 02, 2013
Birthdays
Forgot mine this year
when did they become a chore
I laughed
as a child
at that ridiculous
plot hole
how could anyone forget their birthdays
and why
Now I laugh at that child
they are easy to unremember
I spent mine this year
in an emergency room
watching glass-cut flesh get sewn
how fragile
everything is
even that certainty I once held
Nobody
Nobody forgets their own birthday
when did they become a chore
I laughed
as a child
at that ridiculous
plot hole
how could anyone forget their birthdays
and why
Now I laugh at that child
they are easy to unremember
I spent mine this year
in an emergency room
watching glass-cut flesh get sewn
how fragile
everything is
even that certainty I once held
Nobody
Nobody forgets their own birthday
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Why I write
long after I know no one else comes to visit, but me
it is because
when I revisit the things I once wrote
that old familiar yet strange me
still stirs fresh emotions
and because
I know
it still means something to me
after that time, the distance
that is why I write
not for anyone else to read, or to impress,
but to reconnect with an old feeling, a place, a fleeting
fancy
It is a testament to the things I've once seen, heard, and thought
no longer
That is why I write
to get at that space
that time and forgetfulness quite easily replace
I write because I once was, and is still here
Yes, our existence, like so many footprints in the sand
why does it matter what where how why
But because I wrote. It is a consolation: that what where how why
mystery that we are
doesn't mean a thing
but that I wrote I was there
that is a fact too
just as I was here, is here, and may not be there
was born, am living, will die
I wrote.
That is a fact too.
it is because
when I revisit the things I once wrote
that old familiar yet strange me
still stirs fresh emotions
and because
I know
it still means something to me
after that time, the distance
that is why I write
not for anyone else to read, or to impress,
but to reconnect with an old feeling, a place, a fleeting
fancy
It is a testament to the things I've once seen, heard, and thought
no longer
That is why I write
to get at that space
that time and forgetfulness quite easily replace
I write because I once was, and is still here
Yes, our existence, like so many footprints in the sand
why does it matter what where how why
But because I wrote. It is a consolation: that what where how why
mystery that we are
doesn't mean a thing
but that I wrote I was there
that is a fact too
just as I was here, is here, and may not be there
was born, am living, will die
I wrote.
That is a fact too.
Three years
the last note
and
this
A space
between
which
365 days times two plus five months and eight days fell
among lost words, forgotten tears, and things too sentimental to want
to remember
the space too
where some young part of me ballooned and wilted
eternally like lives of a mushroom
in some god forgotten space
between that last note
and this
and
this
A space
between
which
365 days times two plus five months and eight days fell
among lost words, forgotten tears, and things too sentimental to want
to remember
the space too
where some young part of me ballooned and wilted
eternally like lives of a mushroom
in some god forgotten space
between that last note
and this
Monday, August 20, 2012
Birthday
Took the day off, an old habit, I admit
made plans (a museum maybe)
sitting in front of the computer (on my bed) at noon
summoning up excitement (like I should)
Every year, a bit of the old magic gets rubbed away
little by little
like cityscapes erased
by the incoming fog of old age
I am not old (yet) I know
but as certain as others assure me of the fact
I am aware that I am young ( no longer)
The evidence is clear in the lackadisical way I tell old friends
thanks for your kind wishes
the unwillingness to get out of bed
to celebrate (what and how) I am unsure of
The reason (why) I am reluctant to wake my sister up
who is (still)
dreaming
young dreams
made plans (a museum maybe)
sitting in front of the computer (on my bed) at noon
summoning up excitement (like I should)
Every year, a bit of the old magic gets rubbed away
little by little
like cityscapes erased
by the incoming fog of old age
I am not old (yet) I know
but as certain as others assure me of the fact
I am aware that I am young ( no longer)
The evidence is clear in the lackadisical way I tell old friends
thanks for your kind wishes
the unwillingness to get out of bed
to celebrate (what and how) I am unsure of
The reason (why) I am reluctant to wake my sister up
who is (still)
dreaming
young dreams
Saturday, May 26, 2012
Alamo Square, 05/26/12, 6:53pm
The bird that was flying so strangely
balleting through the air
was a falling leaf
balleting through the air
was a falling leaf
Thursday, May 17, 2012
catching the 10pm 29
You don't believe in soul mates
so you destroyed my ideal, too (I still haven't forgiven you for that)
chipping at its logical foundation with reason,
I don't have your skills of argumentation,
reducing it to a childish rubble.
You are not romantic. You are not poetic.
You don't read, except for technological news
and some of my writing,
just so you can ridicule them
because, you said, it is fun.
You bore me with international news I don't find amusing.
You called yourself a genius, and meant it.
You are not that guy in my writing class
who crafts words that ebb and flow to lunar gravitational pull
whom I tried to count the number of times he laughed (zero)
and seemed to glow inwardly with that sad wounded melancholic air of a poet.
No, you are not.
But the next time I meet another guy who tugs at my heartstrings
because he is mysterious and promises wondrous stories
Let me never forget that tonight,
it is you,
who, when the bus ran its stop, kept right on
despite my pleas for it to stop
ran alongside, in your sandals,
and when I got tired,
went right on ahead so that you could flag it at that next corner
after I had gotten tired of shouting: Please. Stop.
after I had started to tear
after my legs gone weak
so that at that next stop, standing at the door, holding up eight pairs of eyes, I could get on, knowing that I wouldn't have caught it,
if it wasn't for you.
so you destroyed my ideal, too (I still haven't forgiven you for that)
chipping at its logical foundation with reason,
I don't have your skills of argumentation,
reducing it to a childish rubble.
You are not romantic. You are not poetic.
You don't read, except for technological news
and some of my writing,
just so you can ridicule them
because, you said, it is fun.
You bore me with international news I don't find amusing.
You called yourself a genius, and meant it.
You are not that guy in my writing class
who crafts words that ebb and flow to lunar gravitational pull
whom I tried to count the number of times he laughed (zero)
and seemed to glow inwardly with that sad wounded melancholic air of a poet.
No, you are not.
But the next time I meet another guy who tugs at my heartstrings
because he is mysterious and promises wondrous stories
Let me never forget that tonight,
it is you,
who, when the bus ran its stop, kept right on
despite my pleas for it to stop
ran alongside, in your sandals,
and when I got tired,
went right on ahead so that you could flag it at that next corner
after I had gotten tired of shouting: Please. Stop.
after I had started to tear
after my legs gone weak
so that at that next stop, standing at the door, holding up eight pairs of eyes, I could get on, knowing that I wouldn't have caught it,
if it wasn't for you.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Five years in between
What is the maximum distance from which you can love a human being?
Answer: less than a millimeter. And without a name.
-Lars Gustafsson
I knew that you wanted to say more
I ignored you
deliberately
and laughed loudly so you wouldn't have a chance,
not to say more
I know you wrote about me in that poem
so I chose not to look at it
After all five years is a long time
Long enough to make a city unrecognizable
and the old places
familiarly strange
There is a maximum distance from which you can love a human being
it is not 8490 air miles and
five years in between
Answer: less than a millimeter. And without a name.
-Lars Gustafsson
I knew that you wanted to say more
I ignored you
deliberately
and laughed loudly so you wouldn't have a chance,
not to say more
I know you wrote about me in that poem
so I chose not to look at it
After all five years is a long time
Long enough to make a city unrecognizable
and the old places
familiarly strange
There is a maximum distance from which you can love a human being
it is not 8490 air miles and
five years in between
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- Nippy
- I love words. This is simply a place for me to collect all the wonderful words I've come across in my journey through books and movies.